Lately, its been raining alot and the whether outside was a bit of cold and damp.
Came back from work and a drinking session with some friends, I took a nice shower and sat down to watch a few episode of a latest chinese drama.
After watching it realise it was already 4.28am in the morning and supposingly i should be going to bed right now but instead i feel like jotting this feeling down on my blog.
As i was recalling me driving alone after the drinking session with my friends, I was in a very upset mood but it was hard to explain the feeling. The feeling of unsatisfactory of my life and loneliness. I was speeding home with loud music turned on... Tho it was an unpleasant feeling that i am feeling, but i am enjoying it.
I learned a quote that I could never forget and I have always apply it when i feel sad.
A not so much of a close friend that i met once long long time ago told me this when i was very sad on that night.
He asked me "What is Sadness" and I told him it was a "Feeling". "Exactly", he exclaimed.
" All of us human has the 2 most common feeling we had most of the time which is hapiness and sadness. If we enjoyed hapiness why can't we enjoy the sadness too?"
I was indeed very surprised with what he said and thinking that what kind of nonsense was he talking about. "How can we possibly enjoy sadness when we feel the pain in our heart"
But after a long time, I realised the meaning of his words. " Hapiness & Sadness " comes in a pair.
Without sadness we wouldn't know the means of happiness.
I strongly believes everyone of us has come across the feeling of hurt when someone that we care and love leaves us. But with the feeling of sadness, we could only understand the importance of the person and how much love we have for the one. This is the beauty of it... When you have someone to cry for is better than you have no one so be sad for.
I have now reach the stage where I have no one to be sad of and no one to cry for.
The only thing that will give me sadness is myself, my loneliness and my fear of not being in the right track to reach the right place.
Knowing that nothing can happen just when you wanted it and without efford putted in. Therefore I would be telling myself no matter what happens, I will still be moving forward until i see what i wanted to see....
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wow... sounds so emo partner... neways little bit advise for ya. remember everything comes in a packages. e.g (dark=light, happy= sad, feelings= hurt, love = betray etc etc)... but it doesnt mean that ppl will stop living or thinking they r alone.. not at all. let me tell ya some thing. after heavy rain everything turns quit and calm, but very soon weather change to cold n nice. life also same.. after happiness the quit moment will appear to take their part, n the meanwhile they prepare ur next upcoming happiness for ya ... dont ever think that u r alone... if u r , then y ppl still replying on ur status? may b u lost some of them which u have never aspect n soon gonna loose one more person.... but what ever it is... i m proud that u still focusing on what u wanted n still want...
ReplyDeletelast but not least... just a lil advise might work out in ur life... try to lead ur life as a doer, not follower...
peace............
Thanks alot for ur sharing partner..
ReplyDeleteU're rite everythings a pair.. A good and bad side of everything.
I wanted to be more focused in my future and career, i have already aspected it..
tho i know i have may frens.. but true ones are hard to get... those who knows me well, understands me... I can only say reaching to a certain age, we all tend to have our own secrets that not even best frens are allowed to share.. therefore, people who truly understand us becomes lesser and lesser and then at last it lefts only ourselves who knows surely who we are and where we stand.. That's how i feel now partner.. But im facing it with open mind so dun worry..